BTM FDR

I had to learn it the hard way, that you were just a mistake. So I’m leaving, I’m leaving you behind.

How selfish of myself to always say that it was more than I could take. Like it was pain I could not shake. Like it could break me with its fingers, throw my body in the lake, and I would slowly sink away. But the truth is it was sorrow that I made and would not face. See, I keep falling for the future after tripping on the past.

You can lock yourself away, give up, forget, go back to sleep.

Or you can realize that there is so much more to life than yesterday.

Keep my goddamn name out of your mouth.

You’re just a shade of grey.

This body’s closed until further notice. Wandering too close will get you nowhere fast. I’m looking for an option that won’t involve you at all.

I need you like water in my lungs.

Am I the only one, or am I just one of many?

We share something I wish that I could put to an end. This life of addiction led, the common thread.

I’ve held this in for far too long, what I thought you were was something else. You never cared, you never listened. You’re as welcome as cancer.

You’re not loose, you’re wide open.